Dear XTC,
Thank you for this day. Not a lot is going on. I’m supposed to meet M. today. I’m thinking about the purpose of this blog, and can I use it for a specific purchase instead of just a journal. There’s nothing wrong with a journal, but maybe I can teach lessons from the bible or something.
Yesterday I talked to a friend about me not playing videogames. I don’t think he really understood. My generation thinks videogames are harmless, but I’m not so sure. I think it contributed to my illness. I know it dominating my thinking and my time. I know I felt a physical draw to play them. I know for me they are addictive and rob me of my most precious and limited resource: my time.
I lost my train of thought. In any case, this is my choice. My pets need me, M. needs me, and I want that time to do creative things, or at least read or do something constructive. I worry if tragedy strikes I might relapse, but I can’t worry about that or control it from this side. J. needs me. More later.
Love,
Trem