Dear Father,
Thank you for this day. Unfortunately, bible study is coming to an end. It’s sad, because I’ve grown to love and trust the others. I can ask them questions most of my friends can’t begin to answer wisely. That cicada is going crazy. Je.’s gonna want to eat it. She’s quieted down now. I watched a video on Warframe tiers. I’m surprised Wu Kong is ranked as high as he is, but I’ve only seen him played a few times. Buying a Prime that way seems like a bad idea. Hopefully I can make him one day. I don’t need to, though. Frost Warframe, although limited, is one of my favorites. The youtuber ranked Trinity as A+, and now that I see how to use her abilities (with a mod called rage), I think I will be able to master her play style.
God, I am functional, but I wonder if this is Your will. I want to do what pleases You, whether that’s gaming or not. Obviously, I don’t want to lose control, but this is milder than megaten was. I play for an hour, typically break for an hour (unless playing a mission with friends, which I need to work on). I just need to make sure You are first, and those you have entrusted me have their needs met first. I texted E. tonight. No response. She’s probably tired and asleep. I hope we get to talk tomorrow.
The sound of cicadas has an unusual place in my personal unconscious. I’ve used it in a lot of writing, but it wasn’t always a pleasant thing. When I was sick It would really irritate me. Of course, I’ve been I guess.. in remission for almost 6 years now. I don’t know what you call it, except that I’ve been for the most part healthy.
It was nice to get T. and P. to play. Unfortunately, M. doesn’t have internet at his house, so he can’t play. I plan, Lord willing, to keep hanging out with him and T. and making that a priority. I felt like Mom was a little down today. I hung out with her before she went to bed. Maybe I can call it a night at about 830 pm, even using taking my meds as an excuse to go offline.
I didn’t play when I got home tonight. It was 830 and I couldn’t do an hourly session. Better to abstain in this case. Please help me to put gaming in its proper place, at the lowest order of the totem pole. It’s nice to play with offline friends, but it’s no replacement for interaction with real people. Lord help me be a good steward, and take care of those entrusted to me.
Trem