Father,
Although I am not directly addressing this one to you, I’m still thinking about.. things. Like, what do I do now? I have no desire to do Speilleter. I enjoyed sewing yesterday. It’s simpler than creating from whole cloth (ha ha). I don’t know what’s going on, but I know you have a purpose for this time. I may come into contact with the virus, may spread it. I pray, God, please protect my mother and aunt and uncle. I want to see them, but will probably wait until this sore throat thing passes. I don’t think that’s one of the symptoms? It may depend on each person.
I follow Mi. on Instagram. I noticed a point of reference about one of my posts. It may me rethink my perspective. Although she’s not in my life really.. I wonder what it would’ve been like to be part of her life. I know that door is closed, and will likely never open, but that’s okay. I have Em., and we love each other. If I had spent an hour a day in prayer with you.. would things be different? I guess I’m learning, we all are. How many almost relationships have I had in my life? Please help me with my relationship with Em. I need to love her, Mother, and the puppies more than myself. I guess the pups are dogs, but they have the same physical, emotional needs as me. When I wake them up at night to get food, I feel like You chastise me, and I don’t sleep well. Was it last night I bumped Brother’s kennel? My short term memory is so bad. Please help me with it and my focus. My side effects and symptoms.
I need to let the comics be less important. Not give up on making them, but giving up on a future that will not be, or may be decades from now. I like the illustrated journal.
God, please help me help those around me, to encourage, exhort, and lift up Jesus, You, and Your holy Word as revealed in the bible. Maybe M. doesn’t need a sermon. Maybe she needs to be served in a new and fresh way. Maybe she needs the yard mowed tomorrow. She’s depressed, and I am, too. Maybe we are not spending enough time outside. I miss my cat. I miss sharing the bed with him. I pray I sleep as well as when I had him with me.
Thank You, Lord, for helping me get all that out.
Love,
Kelly