Dear Father,
I had intended to quit gaming several days ago, and I believe you changed my heart, but it was today, when I unplugged the system, and put it back in its old spot, the controllers and headset up that I felt true repentance occurred, through Your continual grace and help.
I liked Warframe, but I wasn’t sleeping as well, waking up nauseated (which might have been unrelated), but when I stopped playing, for a few hours, I’d feel down, a bit slow, sad even. So today, I played two sessions in the morning, and then felt awful. It’s not worth my health. It’s not worth a lot of things, but Lord, that’s where you helped me draw the line. I want to write and create again, but my focus seems off. I’ve been wanting to take a figure of mythology and kind of.. make him in my image, that is, form him into something useful, albeit recognizable, and with no disrespect.
Is this normal? Is this normal for me? Oh yes, when I get a breath of inspiration, I often latch onto it and pursue it zealously. But I often wonder if this is the right approach. If you don’t enjoy writing, art, your pastime, it’s still worth doing, but it’s like the difference between a trail in the park and mountain climbing, and the emotional and mental muscles you need for this change are comparable to the former metaphor.
People wait until they feel inspired to create. They want the perfect idea, but creation is work. What does the scripture say? “And on the seventh day God rested from all His work..”
I don’t know how much of an expenditure a quantum of power is to an omnipotent God, but it was work, in that it required Him to use His power in a way he hasn’t done since before the Fall. One day, he will create a new Heavens and Earth. I can’t wait to see it :)